My lesson

So much lesson for me to learn in my life, one test follow by the other..
Why people never tend to get enough?Is there a contented term for everyone?
How do we define best?How do we define right?How do we define happiness?
I did what is suppose to be done and even more to make it better but in the end in another person's point of view, i did nothing but everything wrong..
I felt down not because of nothing in return but because people dont appreciate and caused themselves to struggling for happiness and for more which never come to an end.
Am sad that a special appreciation is difficult to practise..

One of the person who understands me...Salvadore Dali

Man cannot escape or change time: the eye sees the present and the future.
I believe the time that everyone sees through from own eyes are different.To some the time seems to past so slowly and to some the time is never enough for them.To me, i dont see my time.I dont count them and i dont be controlled by it.Am right here, right now, never start, never end..
I really love this art creation from Dali..The eye of time.I wanted to own this brooch even if i know i couldnt own the time.. 

My Kindle

Have finally got something which is on my wishlist for almost 3 years...
Its the Kindle from Amazon!
No one can imagine how much i love reading.I even dream of being a librarian so i can be with the books
everyday..haha
I must thank my dad for bringing me to bookstores often when i was young.I started reading bedtime stories
since 7 years old..Love to run wild with my imagination and sink myself into the stories..
The books are where i gained alot of my own belief.
In my primary school we have a small reading corner in each classroom.We have some days in school which
is set as reading period and we can just pick any book from the shelf there and read it in class.
I think this is also one way which built up my habit of reading from the school.I remember we used to have Bookworms club selling their books in school ocassionally.I used to collect the books from Bookworm.
Enid Blyton is also one of my fav.
And now i change to a bigger and bigger bookshelf every year as they can hardly hold all my books anymore.Now i have got the Kindle-ebook in hand which is really handy for me.It is able to hold more than 1000 books all in one handy device!Amazing isnt it?And i can use wifi to purchase new books in less than 1 min.Am loving it so much!And must see it to believe it that the e-ink pearl display wordings which looks exactly just like the normal printed books.I especially love the screen as it is a matte one with hardly no reflection under lights.It is even reading to me with the audio function when my eyes are tired :)
I must thank Mr A for making my reading dream come true...muackks!

  

When your heart gets too tired-switch it off

My eyes are too tired to shed anymore tears, my mouth is too tired to utter another word for my feeling,my mind is too tired to experience any happiness or sadness,am just too tired right now and needs a good rest and some silence of my own.Shutting down the switch in my heart for a moment.Please do not disturb.

The Rolls Royce of chocolate-Royce'

Cant believe a chocolate can really taste like a piece of heaven!
ROYCE’ was founded in Sapporo,Japan in 1983. By gradually acquiring better techniques and enriching  experiences, ROYCE' is dedicated to making real good chocolate of world quality in Hokkaido where the climate and the clean air are suitable for making confectionaries.

What really impressed me most is not the chocolate at first.Its the thoughtful packaging!
Like always, japanese wins on the fancy eyecatching and detailed packaging.
True to the Japanese commitment to perfection, Royce’ is wrapped in three layers of packaging, as well as a cooling gel pack to ensure that the chocolates make it from the shop to one’s home (wherever in the world that may be). There is also a little note recommending storage at below 10°C, because the ingredients are highly perishable.

                                     

The Royce’ that i had are little blocks of precisely cut chocolates heavily dusted in cocoa powder, dont even have to worry about your fingers got messy and sticky;they provide you with a mini spade thing that you can stick it like a toothpick and gracefully place it into your mouth.Smooth to the tongue as they were to the touch, its texture can only be described as gossamer. Light as a whisper, it disappears quickly, leaving just a lingering chocolate taste. Sweet enough to satisfy, these were subtle.The closest feeling that i can describe to it is like falling in love..A more persuasive description will be close to like orgasm with love one.:P haha
It is that good for my first try.

I have basically included all the other Royce' products in my to do bucket list!Gonna try them or die with regret....

Frozen moment

There are times in my life that i dont want to give a damn at all..I just dont want to think about it, talk about it,look at it or even get rid of it.Just caught in a situation where i knew exactly the fear, the pain and i refuse to face it and take it..therefore i chose to freeze it for the moment.
Cos one step backward, i might fall, one step forward i might regret..always hope to stay the same, stay right like this but life keeps on moving.I can take a break somewhere but have to keep on moving soon...

Family-father and mother i love you

I dropby Daiso in sungai wang today. Daiso is a major player in the 100 yen shop industry.Through a wide selection of products ranging from miscellaneous daily goods to food, cosmetics, home décor and traditional Japanese arts and crafts, together with amazingly low prices for RM5 only.

Exploring through some innovatives and creatives useful daily products, in a sudden moment daddy curious face flash before me.He always like to know about new things.Ever busy with fxing and creating new stuffs at home.He is always amazed by how new tools come handy.How i wish he is still around and i can bring him there and he will love to see some new japanese creation..I really do miss him alot sometimes i just cant help when things around reminds me of him.How i wish i will have a second chance to be a good daughter, close to his heart.Never really want to leave him so lonely.

Guess alot people will have heard of this meaning word calls FAMILY.
It exists only when we have a father and a mother and most importantly when there is us and we love each other.This is a family.There is no me if there is no father or my mother.I really appreciate this lifetime with them and my brother too.The journey most worthwhile in my life on earth is the journey to HOME.

Family is,
heaven sent from our father above,
bonded by the power of love.
No matter what family has each others back,
when push comes to shove.

Family is,
understanding, never demanding,
all for one and one for all,
I will never leave you alone standing.

Family is,
one in itself, my love is your love,
your pain is my pain, my wealth is your wealth,
I promise to never leave you by yourself.

Family is,
the strongest team, the strongest unit;
if love could be visualized,
family would be the blue print.

Family is,
forgiveness and patience,
it's sweeter than the sweetest fragrance,
the power of family is a reflection of Gods compassion and magnificence.

Family is,
never turning our back, and never shames,
lend my helping hand and not a finger pointing the blame.

No matter what a family bond can never be broken,
even through a nuclear explosion,
if one of us lives we all live.
Forever to eternity, we are family,
my father, my mother, my brother and me.

I saw a rainbow

We often look back, sometimes infront and sometimes look down.
How often do we look up to the sky and pray with hope?

There' s a rainbow in the sky all the time dont be blind
there's a rainbow in the sky all the time dont be blind
dont be blind

Said you im living in my fantasy
but is you who is blinded by reality
the material world means so much to you
you just can't get what im telling you

Cause in a town called sorrow there was joy
yes and there i met painless fear
freed he expressed emotions that egos fear
my life is full of colors yeah my mind is clear

Found i mercy in every sunrise i am born again from the womb of the night
all i have i have left behind
minds eye eyes eye a light will shine

Communicating with plants

Today i talked to some essential oils which are purely extracted from flowers and plants.

My pick was sandalwood, geranium,teatree and eucalyptus.

They all represented certain characters and meanings...which surprisingly speaks about me.

Unbelievable how us human can actually connect with plants and flowers.

This is actually a kind of aromatherapy which heals your ownselves with what your body needs the most.

Energy created from extract of these does a magic by balancing out our energy in the body.

A box of chocolate

Life is like a box of chocolate, you never know what you will get..

In one of my dream the past few days, i dreamt that i received a gift.
Its a set of chocolate series stationeries.They arent made from real chocolate but looks like.
There is this chocolate pencil case, eraser,chocolate ruler which is a chocolate bar etc

I got up feeling blessed as i have got mostly what i have been wishing for lately.
It is almost like picking my own favourite flavor of chocolate.
Its a much contented feeling compare to a surprise that am getting!
In my life right now, am wondering what kind of chocolate will i get this year..
Am excited and happy no matter what i get as they will still be a box of chocolate :)

Insomnia

I had a terrible sleep last night..i seriously think i should invest on a new mattress.
Spending 8 hours on it every night for years i should have slept on something which is super duper comfort.
I will really consider spending thousands on a really nice bed, will you?

Last night, had so called insomnia hits.I figure out, insomnia could be cause by over thinking on 3 possible issues..things which not yet been done / things which has already been done/things which are not figure out yet to be done or has done.
What i can possible explain why this happen to me is that i am
repeating thinking on things which have not been done and i pretty much wish to.
Thats really keeps my mind awake thinking on them.
Life is so short, maybe mine; i have so many things that i wish to do..sighhh
I have recently updated my bucket list-a life list, life goals which you can start living the best out of yourself.
"You measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you" now this is really something am looking forward to:)
My ultimate goal is to find a someone who can share and appreciate my goals together with me and i truly knows he is out there..

With heart or with mind?

I often think alot after watching a movie.Recently, seen "Doubt".Its an Intellectual movie revolving around the fight for justice and the struggle between truth, faith, indifference and uncertainty.

Doubt forces you to view the story from each different perspective offered.
You begin to understand the plight of an old fashioned nun whose beliefs are the foundation of her existence.
You are awed at her dogged determination to see justice prevail.
As the story deepens, your trust in her motives starts to waver.
You wonder if it is truly justice she is seeking or whether her real motive is to eliminate a man who is embracing change and attempting to break the monotony of racism and indifference.
You contemplate the indecision of the naive nun who only wants tranquility to resume.
You heart is in turmoil as you observe the struggle and try to grasp the reality of a child's mother.
You grow to appreciate the dreams and hopes of the church priest and are continually uncertain whose side you are on.

It certainly puts me in for a roller coaster through right, wrong, faith, reality, morality, and of course, doubt.
Doubt straddles the line of right and wrong down the wire..thus leaving me wondering sometimes when we have to make a decision , do you follow your heart or you follow your mind?

A movie that change a thinking and might change a life

Watched a dvd last night <<Julie & Julia>>.
Ebullient, witty, and wonderfully warm-hearted Julie & Julia is a celebration of how to live life to the full.
As age slowly verging towards 30 i started to wonder that i havent really did any big acomplishment in the past 28 years..honestly never really lived fully.
Sometimes a movie came along and sent a message that could change a person's thinking thus life.
Just at this blink of right time, i realised that am also leading a life much alike to julie powell.Having no big acheivements to claim as a success in my life.Ok, actually not having something meaningful which i can say in a way of influencing or helping others.
I never really finish alot of things in my life that i thought i will..Its not that am not good at it, but it is that i was doing all these things for others and not for myself!That somehow explains the determination and forces that i probably need.
Well, no more excuses and explanations..right now right today..
I wanted to be like Julia.Having a heart of a child and finds happiness easily.Just everywhere around us.
I wanted to be like Julie too.Find something to acomplished before i find myself meaningless...
And all these are going to be for my own..will have to start stopping doing things for others sake.
I love myself more and more everyday:)  

Fallen Angels

http://vimeo.com/19121097

Do you sometimes thinks people around you are maybe one of the disguised fallen angels?
Beautiful from the inside=angels from above, Beautiful from the outside=angels on earth

Seesaw- philosophy of life

Indeed it is so true about finding a balancing in life..but yet we always ask for more thus juggling more.
I realize that in our whole lifetime, we are playing at least 5 roles in different stage of life.
Being a daughter,being a student,being an employee,being a girlfriend, being a mother etc
Its unavoidable unless for some rare ones.Its not how well you played the role but your responsibility of being that someone.What fascinates me most is what i have learnt and experienced from each role.
Life is like a drama...what is your script like?The universe gave me a basic rough piece of story and i touched it up with my wishes and thoughts to make it much more interesting..